Still can't resist
I have been writing non-stop since Sunday afternoon, my back is killing me from sitting up so long. I have created a little laptop table and moved it over to my bed so I can sit more comfortably. I have finished getting down most of the basic facts I need for my exam, now I need to work on actually answering the questions. The trouble I am having I what kind of answers does she really want from me? I am starting to realize that I am probably one of the smarter people taking this class, and I would like to live up to that expectation. If not her, for myself.
I am having trouble sleeping again, I assume it is because of all the stress, I had been trying to quit smoking and I recently went from smoking no nicotine cigarettes to lights...bad me. I just need to get through this week, and next week and the week after that....it never ends. Jeez...
My psychiatrist says I have repressed anger issues and that I don't talk enough...she said this to me today...of all days... she had to add more stress. She kept trying to push my buttons, make me mad I think. Instead I wanted to come home and find a new doctor. What does that say about me? Instead of standing up for myself I would rather run and hide, find someone new.
I really think I need to get some sleep. I am dosing off because my meds are kicking in, I better take advantage of that and see if they help me to sleep tonight.