I want to change the world.
I said that I was going to write something everyday, even though I don't have much to say about today's events I feel I have to be true to my goals. As far as Sundays go today was a typical one. I didn't bother to even get out of my pajamas. Instead I stayed in bed and watched the nothing that was on TV.
I really wish my TiVo was here, even if I didn't have any movies recorded I could be skipping through commercials. I really hate commercials, I have such a short attention span that I forget what I am watching after the second commercial and I start flipping channels. I think that is part of the reason I got diagnosed with attention deficit disorder a couple of years ago.
I have been going to see shrinks since I was about 14 years old. As I mentioned before I have been diagnosed with a lot of crap over the years. I think now that I finally found a doctor that knows what she is talking about. However, along with her diagnosis comes a $200 per month (that's with insurance) regimen of pills that I have to take daily to treat all of the thing that are wrong with me. Some of them are genetic and some of them are just due to childhood trauma or environmental factors. The good thing is that I am taking the pills everyday and seeing the doctor every month.
Whenever I think about this I think about my father. My father could be a great guy if he would just take the medication and stop drinking. Part of his problem is that he fears doctors and police more then anything in the world, secondly he doesn't have health insurance to pay for the medication and psychiatry he needs. I wish there was something I could do about that.
Which brings me to the comment that my husband made to me the other day after I made several statements about what I feel is wrong with the world and how much I want for there to be true peace (John Lennon peace). He said "What are you going to do about it?" in his way of saying "there is nothing you can do, so stop worrying about it".
It is because of that comment that I decided that I wanted to create two different blogs, one for my personal stuff and one for writing about the problems with the world and I hope pointing people to ways to change the world for the better. Even with this personal blog I hope to help share information with others that will change their views about psychological disorders and other problems of life.