Getting ready for xmas
I am still not sleeping. I think it is the new medicine for the arthritis. It's a steroid. It says on the bottle that it can cause insomnia. I don't think this is a good thing for a person in my position. However, I like the fact that I can walk and feel my fingers again. I really like that. My shrink says that sometimes you have to give up somethings to make yourself better, I don't know if she meant sleep but I am willing to give it a few more days. The good side is that I have had plenty of time to plan and decorate for Christmas and I have felt good doing it.
This is going to be the best Christmas that we have ever had. We spent a lot of time picking out all the right presents for each other and the kids. The tree looks terrific and I spent a lot of time decorating the house with lights and odds and ends. My little brother will be coming to have dinner on Christmas eve and that is something special too. We have never spent a Holiday together before this year and after January he plans to move to Florida.
My dad is in Florida right now. I spent a week and about $500 to get my dad to Florida from Virginia. He lost his place to live and his job, and I couldn't bear to see him out in the cold of winter here in the north. I thought it was the best thing to send him to Florida where the weather is warm and they are looking for people who work on houses like my father does. The only problem is that He kept calling and asking for money once he found out that all I had to do was log on to WesternUnion.com and send it. He called everyday, sometimes twice a day until one day he called and was obviously drunk and I told him that I didn't have anymore money to send, I really didn't, but I also didn't want to send any money so that he could drink. He hasn't called me back since. I guess he's mad at me. I tried so many times to be a good daughter, I don't know what else to do. I guess it's time to give up and let him grow up on his own. He's in a safer place now and that's all I can do for him. I wish him a merry Christmas wherever he is right now and I hope that he is ok.
Back to my world. There are only 5 more days until Christmas and I am so excited. I can't wait to see the kid's faces in the morning. My son is already so happy just looking at the packages under the tree. Christmas Morning will be wonderful. I hope it is for all of you.