Quitting Everything
There are a lot of changes taking place right now. For me anyway, as my husband has already posted...I am trying yet again to quit smoking. This time I have the added incentive of a 17" Power Book at the end of the first 30 days. I decided to quit 2 days ago and in the last 2 days I have not yet smoked a full pack of cigarettes. I have them here right beside me (now that I think about it, it might be a better idea to keep them on the other side of the room.) but I am not smoking them as I type, like I would normally. I really think that I have the right thinking this time, the right reasons and I have lost a lot of the irrational fears that I have had in the past.
At the same time that all of this is going on I am also kind of throwing myself into walking and other exercises. It helps to kill some time, take my mind off having a cigarette while at the same time it has already helped me to lose 7.5 pounds in the last 2 weeks. I have a friend who is really into to fitness and she came over a couple of days in a row and showed me a lot of things that I can do here at home without having to pay to go to the gym. Which makes you wonder why anyone does.
I am really excited right now and I don't want to let myself down. This is what was missing from my previous attempts at losing weight and quiting smoking I didn't care as much about letting myself down as I did other people. This time it is the other way around.
I am hoping that tomorrow night I can post that I have not had a cigarette all day. That would be a good start. I am hoping that with my husband home for 3 days with me he can help me get through the first few days, which I think are going to be the hardest. After a couple of days with no cigarettes I will have more faith in myself and I will be able to handle the rest alone.
I have given up harder things than this so much easier, I can't believe that I have to give it so much thought. There is a package of Oreos sitting beside my bed that I haven't opened since I started my diet, I have will power. It's the habit that I have to break. I am used to reaching over and grabbing my smokes any time I feel stressed, bored, hungry, depressed (especially) or any other time I can't think of right now.
I imagine that chewing gum helps a lot and I hear that the nicorette gum has changed since the last time I tried it. I might give it another shot if I have to. I didn't like it before but maybe this time it will taste better than before.
I looked into getting the Nictrol Inhalers, my doctor wrote me a RX for them back a few months ago. I called around to find out how much they cost without insurance and Geez, over $130 for 168 of them. At the same time you are only suppose to have like 6 a day. But 168 of them would last about 7 months. I don't think I need that many. Target is the only place that carries the 42 box but its over $50. Not having insurance for this kind of thing isn't good. I don't see why insurance companies won't cover something that will obviously improve your health. I hear you can get some smoking aids for free from the state but not this stuff. I really want to give it a try but with the holiday weekend my doctors office is closed and Orders for the cartridges wouldn't get here until Tuesday. I am going to have to find another way to get through this weekend. Hard candy and Oreos!