Jemal is Leaving
It has been a very busy weekend. Jemal is getting ready for his trip out to his brother's wedding. He is going to be the best man and Sierra will be a jr. bride's maid. I m going to be here alone with Jared and I am very nervous. After Jared's little accident the other day I wonder what else might happen while Jemal is away.
I have made some plans to keep myself busy. I bought some new games for my Mac and that should take up some of my time. I am also hoping to get out and take Jared to a few places. Jared really just likes to get out of the house. He really likes the video store for some reason.
With Jared I mostly worry that he will be very upset that daddy is not home. He is very close to his father and misses him, much like I do, just while he is at work for a few ours a day. It will be hard to be mommy and daddy for 7 days. I do have my grandmother here in the evenings to give me a break if I need it, I probably will.
I tried to spend as much times as possible with Jemal this weekend but we really didn't have much to do but go shopping for school stuff for Jared and get things ready for the trip.
I am really going to miss him. I am so used to having him around. It might be good for us though. We have been talking about trying to do more things apart. It's been nearly 7 years and we have been together every night except 15. 10 days when we first got together and then 5 days when he went on a work trip 2 years ago. It's hard not to be without him.
The last time he went away though I had a really hard time. I had a lot of friends around thought o help me to get through it. I had someone I could call everyday and talk to. This time my friends all seem to be going away a the same time. I will have to deal with it though. It might be tough but I think I can handle it.
On the bright side of all of this I get to take up the whole king size bed myself. The cat gets to sleep in the bed with me. I get to watch some movies and play some game that I don't normally play when Jemal is home. It will be a little freeing while being a little frightening.
In another bit of news I went to see my shrink again. Not such big news in it's self but she has asked me to make some changes. The first of which is to bring Jemal in to my session in September.
I don't know how well that session will go, if you have ever seen Good Will Hunting I imagine my husband treating her a bit like all of the rejects before Robin Williams. I think she just wants to see what our relationship is like and how it is doing. I don't talk about it much in therapy because I am too busy filling her in on all of the details of my mother, brother and father.
She has also decided to lower my dose of Zyprexa even more. That is a good thing, to me anyway. I feel better on the inside, I just don't know if it is sowing on the outside.
Lastly, she wants me to get a job or get out of the house more. She thinks that it will make me feel better. I am not too sure about it but I talked to Jemal about it anyway. He was as helpful as always.
I thought about getting a job but right now isn't really a good time. I will really have to wait until Jared starts school full time. However, I can start taking classes online for the next year that might help me to get a better job when I do start looking.
I would like to find a job working in an office of some kind. I like filing and typing. I am good with computers and on the phone. I had a great job once in human resources that I just loved. I wish that I could have kept it but it was only a temp job. I guess it wouldn't be a bad idea to work on a resume sometime soon. Those things always take me forever. I never know exactly what to write. Maybe something will come to me over the next 12 months.