More Stuff About Me
It has been a while since I have written anything and I thought I should just write a little update so that everyone knows what is going on right now. There really isn't a lot to say at this point I am still waiting to see some doctors. I have an appointment on the 19th at Johns Hopkins to see the Rheumatologist and find out if this is Lupus or something like Lupus or what. Then I have another appointment on the 20th to see a Pulmonologist about the Lung Polyp they just found on Monday.
I am a little worried about the lung polyp because I did a goggle search for information about it and they all came back with CANCER information. Jemal told me to stop looking things up on the internet and wait until I see the doctor. So, I am trying not to think about that because it could be anything. I have so many problems that it could just be another kind of cyst like the one that I had on my back or something like that. And my Endocrinologist had already told me that she thought that I might have through polyps so I should ask him about that while I am there too.
Since my father went back to jail, I sent him one letter explaining that I was very sick and that I could no longer deal with his drinking and treating me badly. I told him that it was the last letter that he was going to get from me because I just didn't need him in my life anymore. I didn't have a father for most of my life why should I be stressing myself out over a relationship that isn't worth it. I also left it open that if he decided to get his life together to give me a call. At least now I can stop worrying about him because he is suppose to be going to jail for the next 2 years at least. That means that I should have a nice long break from him and time to recuperate.
It is kind of sad that I have to stop taking to my family in order to get better but it has to be done in my case. I bought a bunch of books on how to deal with stressful people, de-stressing your life and getting organized. Hopefully these books will help me to get things straight and be less stressed about everything. I have already noticed a difference in the way that I feel.
This weekend Jemal and I plan to tackle our basement/bedroom and get the closets and shelves organized. That in itself will make me feel better, somehow just knowing that they are piled full of crap that we don't use and empty boxes from electronic that we bought last Christmas makes me stressed. Maybe some of you can understand that. I know that it sounds weird but it just makes me feel strange when things are not organized. I can't put myself together when everything in a mess. even if I can't see it everyday.
I have also scheduled a day every month for us to do a whole house cleaning and charity day. There will be a box in Sierra's room and in our bedroom for putting things that we don't want anymore but that are still in good condition and those things will go off to charity once a month. Our closets are all full of clothes we don't wear and the the kids rooms have tons of toys that they don't play with at all. We will see how this works out after a few months.
I am also getting a lot of ideas from this book that I am reading and I might write up a post one of these days with the best idea that the book has in it for keeping your house organize, for those who are looking for ideas.
The best idea that I ever came up with on my own was to put a cork board up on the wall for each of my kids and underneath one of those wall mounted file holders (the sort of slant off the wall and they are normally used in the office for file folders) and underneath that I put A hook for each child's backpack. At the end of the school day any papers that need to be signed or checks written for field trips and so forth get pinned to the bulletin board and the file holder is used for graded papers and the tops of permission slips (so incase you forget the date you can find it again). And everything is in one place. Sierra knows exactly what to and with Jared it gets done by an adult. Sierra also learned to use the board to leave notes for when she wants a friend to spend the night or if there is a birthday party coming up. It has really worked out great. Just thought I would share.
So I am going to have a busy weekend and I don't think I will be posting here or on my myth site.
Enjoy Easter!