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March 23, 2007

People I would like to be friends with

This is a list of the top 5 people that I would like to get to know in person. There are no restrictions on whether they are dead or alive.
  • John Lennon - I would have liked to learn from him
  • Matt Damon & Ben Afleck ( they count as one person because they are only really funny when they are together)
  • Robin Williams - He is just so naturally funny and fun
  • Will Smith - He seems very down to earth and fun
  • Angelia Jolie - She is such a caring person, and I would have a shot at talking to Brad Pitt too.

It is 3 am

It is 3 am and I am awake. I have been waking up every morning for the last week before 4 am. No matter what time I go to sleep. The night before last I went to bed around 1 am and I still woke up at 4 in the morning. I am also waking up covered in sweat, which has never happened to me in the past but has been a theme of mine for the last week or so.

I intend to call my doctor's today and make some appointments to have this checked out. I don't know if I need something to help me sleep or something to stop the night sweats. I just can't do this any more. I am not getting enough sleep.

March 18, 2007

My Brother is Back...

In today's news, my brother arrived back in Maryland after a 3 daylong trip from Oklahoma via Greyhound. I don't really know how to feel about this right now. I am very happy to see him because I have missed him quite a bit since he left a few years ago. However, he left his ex-girlfriend without even saying good-bye to her or her little girl.

I find myself trying to comfort her but I can't do anything for her. My brother did the wrong thing and I couldn't do anything to make him be a real "Man" in this situation. He was so chicken that he told her that he was just coming out for a visit and that he would be coming back in a few weeks.

The really sad thing is that my bother doesn't even like the girl that he says he moved back here for. He is just using her for her money and a place to stay until he finds someone else to leach off of.

I know that isn't a very nice thing to say about my own brother, but it is the truth. He needs to grow up and he needs to stop getting into relationships with girls that have kids, because when he just up and leaves it doesn't just affect the girl.

What I really can't believe is that the girl he "came back for" actually took him back. He did to her the same thing the he just did to the other girl in OK. He made me buy him a plane ticket and he walked out one day without saying a thing. I can't believe that she would risk putting her son back in that situation.

Notice to all women with children, A) Don't date my brother B) You should never have a guy move in with you until you know it is going to be serious C) Don't tell your children it is okay to call anyone else daddy at least until you are married D) DO NOT DATE MY BROTHER!

Hopefully that will reach some of the people who really need to hear it.

In other News, My father has found himself back in jail again. This time was for drunk and disorderly. This is his 3rd arrest out there, that I know about. I looked online and saw the reports and it looks like he is facing about 3 years for all that he has done so far.

The really interesting thing is that my mother and my father (who hate each other) are now going to be living in the same town. I wonder if she will visit him in jail.

I sent a letter to my father yesterday. In the letter I told him to stop calling me because I am not going to pay for the call and that I don't want to talk to him again until he is sober and stable.

I know that he will never be the person that I want him to be but I still keep the door open. I know that I need to learn how to close the door on him and never look back. The problem is that I have faith in everyone that if they really want to they can change, I need to learn that my father doesn't want to change for me or anyone else, not even to see his grandchildren.

All I know is that I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore. I just want him to be out of my life and I want to be able to feel okay about that. It is a very hard thing to do, for me at least.

As far as I am concerned I don't need the added stress. Just last week I saw my doctor and she gave me some new pain pills, injected me with Cortisone and used another needle (that was HUGE) to draw out some fluid that was in my shoulder for testing. Needless to say it hurt.

I guess that is all that there is for now, maybe I will have more to write about later.

March 09, 2007

It Made The News

I knew that it would happen one day, and in case you didn't believe the last post i made, I finally have proof that my father is a whack-job. My brother and I always knew that one day we would see our dad in the paper, we just never thought it would make the front page. They took out my brother and his girlfriends names but his is in there.

You're really not going to believe this, after doing what he did, he was released without bail and he called me this morning. He called me this morning asking for money. I ended up hanging up on him.

Never a dull day in my life. Too many are too stressful.

March 07, 2007

A Day in the Life...

Today has been on of the most stress filled days I have had in a long time. I know that the whole thing is going to sound like I made it up, but I swear that every word of it is true.

Today around 3 pm my bother's girlfriend called me and said that my brother had opened a letter from my father, that said on the outside "You will never disrespect me again". When he opened it inside he found dead bird parts and a white powder that got all over his hands.

They had already called the police before calling me and as I was on the phone they were setting up a hazmat area in my brother's front yard and told them that they were not allowed to leave the house and no one could come in either.

My brother meanwhile is sweating a lot, his yes were turning red and his throat was very sore and he was throwing up. I was terrified, I didn't know what to do and being so far away made it even harder to deal with.

My brother and every one in the house was taken to quarantine in the nearest hospital. I called the hospital and asked them what was going on but they said that they couldn't tell me any thing and they transfered me to my mother on another line, not that she could help me because they weren't telling her anything either.

For about 3 hours I was worrying and trying to figure out what it might have been. I know that my father is A) not smart enough to get any REAL chemicals and B) It was probably just Baby powder or detergent or something.

Luckily I was right and they stuff turned out to be "Harmless" and they released my brother. I think that talking to my mother made the whole thing seem very extreme and like my brother said "she can turn a flea circus into Barnum and Bailey's 3 ring circus. I should have known better but she was the only person out there that could give me any information.

The biggest news is that now my father has at least 5 Postal Felonies and a numerous amount of Felonies both state and federal. He was really crazy I guess when he did this and didn't realize what the out come would be. It's too late now. I am just glad that my phone doesn't except collect calls and I have no intentions to write to him this time in prison.

I am just so angry at him right now for doing this. I wonder if I should tell the police about the dead bird parts that he sent me in the mail last week.I just threw it away though. I didn't even read it and it was addressed to my son. If I had let him open it, I would have really gone off on my father.

So, after doing some research into Oklahoma law it looks like he is looking at at least 30 years for the "Terroristic Threats" not to mention all of the other stuff he is in for. I really hope that they keep him this time and keep him for good. Sadly, it is the best thing for him and for everyone else. He doesn't belong in the population with all of his craziness.

I can say that everyones lives got a whole lot better after my father was arrested, according to my mother he was arrested but I don't know for sure and I don't care to call anyone to find out if it is true, all I know is that if there is a number other then my brother's from out there I am not going to be answering it. Although I may need to answer it to tell the police where he is. If he would tell me, I am better off not answering it.

I don't know how this is going to turn out but I am pretty sure that he has burned all of his bridges at this point and I doubt that anyone will be there to help him out this time. A 30 year sentence might as well be a death sentence because he is already 50 and not in the best of health.

It is getting late and I need to relax. I don't know what I am going to do tomorrow, but if the kids go to school I will be trying to get out of the house and try to learn all of the new features of my car and just drive around with my radio up all of the way. I really need that.

I hope that tomorrow is better then today. I can't really handle any more stress this week. I will let you know how that goes later in the week.

March 02, 2007

Element SC 2007 Pictures and Specs

I got my car back the day before yesterday and I finally got around to taking some pictures of it this morning. I really love my new car. It is awesome! The color is called "Root Beer Metallic" and all of the trim inside is copper. I also had a few other things added to it like: the hook-up for my iPod so that I can control it via the steering wheel controls, I added the window visors (some thing you need if you are a smoker and it is raining), I added the dividers for the center console, a cargo net and a few other things.

What is really great are the things that come standard on the Element SC. I can start with the stereo controls on the steering wheel, 3 free month of XM radio, carpeted floors - instead of the plastic floors, 18" rims, digital milage and repair information, it has a center console with 2 AUX and Power outlets in the console as well as one power jack on the front dash and several other things you can see on the Honda site. This is my exact Car with all of it's features.

I am so happy that my husband loves me so much that he let me get a new car before he was able to get the Acura that he wants and has been wanting since before he go his Accord. He is so sweet.

One thing about this is that even though I now have a 2007 compared to a 2004 we are paying less on the new car then we would be if we kept paying for the 2004 and I am getting all of these great features.

Standard Features

Technical Features
• 166-hp, 2.4-Liter, 16-Valve DOHC i-VTEC® 4-Cylinder Engine
• 5-Speed Automatic Transmission
• Unit-Body Construction
• Drive-by-Wire™ Throttle System
• Front and Rear Stabilizer Bars
• LEV-2 CARB Emissions Rating
• Control-Link MacPherson Strut Front Suspension
• Compact Double Wishbone Rear Suspension
• Power-Assisted 4-Wheel Disc Brakes
• 100,000 Miles-or-More Tune-Up Interval

Safety Features
• 3-Point Seat Belts at all Seating Positions
• Front 3-Point Seat Belts with Automatic Tensioning System
• Side Curtain Airbags with Rollover Sensor
• Front Side Airbags with Passenger-Side Occupant Position Detection System (OPDS)
• Dual-Stage, Dual-Threshold Front Airbags (SRS)
• Anti-Lock Braking System (ABS)
• Electronic Brake Distribution (EBD)
• Vehicle Stability Assist ™ (VSA®) with Traction Control
• Brake Assist
• Tire Pressure Monitoring System (TPMS)
• Side-Impact Door Beams
• Lower Anchors and Tethers for Children (LATCH)
• Immobilizer Theft-Deterrent System

Interior Features
• Air Conditioning with Air-Filtration System
• Power Front Windows with Auto-Up/Down Driver's Window
• Rear Ventilation Windows
• Power Door and Tailgate Locks
• Carpeted Floor with Floor Mats (1st and 2nd row)
• Urethane-Coated Rear Utility Cargo Floor
• Cruise Control
• Adjustable Steering Column
• Center Console
• Map Lights
• Instrument Panel-Mounted Shifter
• Steering Wheel-Mounted Audio Controls
• Copper Backlit Gauges
• Overhead Storage Compartment
• Adjustable Head Restraints, Front and Rear
• Beverage Holders, Front and Rear
• Driver's Seat with Manual Height Adjustment
• 270-Watt AM/FM/CD Audio System with 7 Speakers including Subwoofer
• MP3/Windows Media® Audio (WMA) Playback Capability
• MP3/Auxiliary Input Jack
• XM® Satellite Radio

Exterior Features
• 18" Alloy Wheels
• Body Colored Composite Body Panels
• Body Colored Door Handles
• Body Colored Side Sills and Roof Moldings
• Body Colored Bumpers
• Side Cargo Doors
• 2-Speed/Intermittent Windshield Wipers
• Rear Window Wiper/Washer
• Roof-Mounted Antenna
• Remote Entry System
• Power Side Mirrors
• Green-Tinted Glass
• Rear Privacy Glass
• Clamshell Tailgate
• Chrome Exhaust Finisher
• Projector-Beam Halogen Headlights

This new car is actually making me want to get out and drive. The weekend after I got my 2004 Jemal and I took a trip to Ocean City. I don't think we will be doing that but i certainly would love to go out for a drive with Jemal this weekend.

I think I may actually use this car to get over my fear of driving. I want to drive it. I would be out driving right now if Jared wasn't home from school today. I think though that I am going to need Jemal to drive with me for the first few long trips but I wan to be able to drive myself to the doctor's offices myself after that.

Columbia (where most of m doctors are) isn't really that far away and I have a nice GPS system that Jemal bought me for our anniversary (I know it doesn't sound like a romantic gift but it was probably the bet gift he ever gave me, for the time). With the GPS I feel comfortable about driving away from home because I will always be able to find my way back home.

I am going to try to get out this weekend while Jemal is here to watch the kids while I take my car out for a drive. I know that I won't be able to drive very far on my first trip but I am going to do some shopping this weekend and I am going to go alone and try to drive for a least 1/2 an hour or so alone. i might try to drive about 20 miles away. I can got to the Mall in Columbia or just to the Arundel Mills Mall and do some shopping while I am out.

I have some projects in mind that I want to work on. I have some ideas for some Christmas and Birthday gifts for people. I know it is a bit early but these projects as going to take some time to make and I have to make about 20 of them.