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Last night, I did something that I didn't think I could do. I went to a birthday party. I was so proud of myself because I was able to pull myself together and go to the party. I even stayed at the party for about 5 hours.

Before hand I had been crying off and on for several hours because I felt guilty that I had made it to his wife's birthday and that I wasn't going to make it to his. I was just so terrified that I wouldn't be able to handle being around people that I didn't know. I thought that I would have to leave immediately after we arrived.

After all of the worrying I decided at the last moment to go and I ended up having a great time, I won $30 at poker and met a lot of nice people. I was even able to stay at the party for about 5 hours. I also made a new friend last night too.

I think that slowly I am getting over my fears. I have even been able to drive further then before. I am looking forward to doing all of the things I used to do. I really think that I am on the road to getting over my fears. I am hopeful of all the things I will be doing in the future.