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For the last few days, weeks really, I have been looking into finding the right cremation necklace for my Uncle Paris's ashes. If you wanna know the story about him you can read it here on my blog entry from this past July.

I recently asked my aunt if I could have a small amount of his ashes because it was something that I have wanted to ask her for since the day of his funeral, I just didn't know how to ask it. I finally asked for it as a birthday present. I would have really loved to get one of those diamonds made of ashes but it cost quite a bit of money for just the stone, you have to go elsewhere to have the ring actually made.

So I came across this site that offers a wide selection of variously prices cremation jewelry and urns for both humans and animals. I also found this beautiful and inexpensive cobalt blue and silver fairy necklace that I think suited his remains and would help me to feel like I have something of his and a daily item to remember him with.

Some people might think that having a gay man's remains in a fairy necklace would seem kind of disrespectful, but if you ever had a conversation with him you would know that he was never ashamed of what he was and he always used the words that ignorant people would use against him and smile about it. In my opinion, I think if he were to know what I have chosen, I think it would make him laugh.

I asked the people that matter to me what they thought and they all agree with me. I don't know if I would have changed my mind if they had thought it was wrong, because I think that I would be happier remembering him the way that will make me happy and I wouldn't change it to make other people happy.

The whole point of this post is not about my uncle but to inform people of another option in ways to remember people who have died and a way to remember people that are gone now. I just think that especially when people are cremated and it leaves some us of wanting a way to "talk" or "connect" with that person and a way to help us to deal with the death. It may sound a bit morbid to some people to have a necklace to remember them but to me personally I really want this.

I would love to hear of other people's ways to deal with death and morning of loved ones. If you care to share your thoughts I would love to hear them.

Posted by Kelle at 09:03 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)

I didn't get to watch this when it came on TV but I rushed to YouTube.com as soon as I heard about what was going on and I have to tell you I am on Rosie's side of things. I have a feeling that the fact the she is a lesbian just gives the republican party more ammo to throw at her. Watch it and tell me what you think.

If you want the real news check out BBCnews.com. You will get the real stories and see why the rest of the globe thinks we are idiots. Just some advice for some of you. And you know who you are. I don't have to list names. The rest of you, congratulations for actually researching stuff before you speak.

And here is another clip where Fox news is completely making shit up to get Rosie off the airwaves:

We need a 24/7 Daily Show channel, they seem to be the only place you can get real news (even though they say they are joking), more an more people are saying that is where they get their news from on a daily basis and their viewers are smarter about world events then those that watch Fox News according to a study done in 2003.

The whole world would be a better place if everyone actually researched stuff before they ramble on about stuff they know nothing but what has been fed to them. Think before you speak.

Posted by Kelle at 06:22 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)

Nope, no release date yet but you can view some screenshots here. I am hoping to get it for Christmas this year. I have been waiting for this to come out for years. And did you notice MAC! Yelp, they will be releasing the MAC version the same day as the PC version. YEAH!!!

Posted by Kelle at 04:49 PM | Permalink | Comments (1)

The day before Mother's Day I wanted to get everything ready so I went to get my camera out of my purse where it always is and it wasn't there. I have been having memory problems for the past few weeks and I don't know what I did with it. I know that at some point I cleaned it out to make it lighter to go to an appointment but I don't know what i did with the stuff that i took out of my purse.

I am losing everything. I used to be obsessively organized. I don't know what happened. I don't know what changed because I can't remember when it all started. I didn't notice it until I couldn't remember what had happened on a TV show from week to week, to the point that I would actually think that we had missed the past weeks episode. It would take 10 minutes of Jemal explaining it all to me for me to remember bits and pieces.

I even mentioned this to my shrink and she said nothing just nodded her head. I had expected her to ask some questions about it or even prescribe something to help, but she did nothing.

I just really don't like this feeling. Especially since I read that if you have memory problems early in life your more likely to get alzheimer's later in life. It would be nice to know if it is the cause of a medication of if it because of something else. I am sure that you can imagine just how scary this can be. I wonder day to day if I will remember my own name when I wake up in the morning. Maybe that is an exaggeration but I do feel worried about it, and no one else seems to think it's a big deal.

Posted by Kelle at 02:59 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)

It was a long time ago when I started noticing that on TV shows and Movies they never say good-bye or other similar farewell when hanging up from a phone call. At first I just thought it was odd but today I really wanted to figure out if there was a reason for it.

After doing a little research I found that I was not the only person that noticed this. I found this guy who actually tried to do it in real life with poor results. Just imagine what people would think if you didn't say good-bye or some other phrase to let them know that the conversation was over and that you were hanging up the phone on them.

So, is there a reason for this? Well, my guess is that it is a superstitious things that people in the entertainment industry believe in. Right now I am doing some research on it but I can't seem to find anything that really answers the question.

After doing several hours of research on the internet I found nothing about it. Not even anyone else (but the one I already linked to) that have mentioned this. I had thought that more people would have had something to say about this topic.

My question to you is have you even noticed this? Do you have any ideas as to why they do this? Have you ever seen an exception to this?

I would really like to know if anyone else can find an answer to this question. I will continue to do research and post anything that I find later.

This is something so simple but yet it really bothers me when I am watching a TV show or a movie and they don't say good bye and they just hang up the phone. I really would feel better if I knew the reason why they don't do it.

Posted by Kelle at 01:22 PM | Permalink | Comments (3)

Today I got the final edit of the write up of the article that is going to go beside the picture of my newest tattoo. I wrote up about 4 pages and they had to reduce it to about 4 paragraphs. I was pretty happy with what they wrote but I did make some changes and sent it back to them and they agreed to the changes that I made and I wanted to share with you the following article that tells the story of why I got this tattoo.

"The tattoo is of my husband’s name. His name is Jemaleddin, meaning “the beauty of god,” but I call him Jemal for short, and so the tattoo reads ‘Jemal’ not ‘Jemaleddin.’

Jemaleddin is an Arabic name. His mother chose it from a book she read in high school with the main characters’ names being Jemaleddin, Sasha, and David. So that is his name: Jemaleddin Sasha David.

I knew that I wanted to have his name on my arm, so on our 8th wedding anniversary we slipped out of the hotel we were staying in and went to look for a tattoo shop. We found the only one in our area opened at 11 am, and I brought with me a computer print out of the Arabic style I wanted. The tattoo artist, Ronnie Lanahan Jr., at Art with a Pulse in Glen Burnie Maryland, did a great job at making the experience memorable. We listened to Sublime for the whole hour it took to finish the tattoo.

Getting a tattoo of a significant other’s name is a great way to show that you have faith in your relationship. It shows that that person means something to you whether you stay together or not. I know that no matter what may happen to us in the future I will still be proud to have his name on my arm. He is a wonderful husband and father and no matter what happens I will always have love for him.

I had intended to wait until our 10th anniversary, but I realized that if we have gone through as much as we have and stayed together, then we are going to make it through anything. Even if the worst possible thing were to happen I am sure that we would stay the best of friends and I would still be proud of the tattoo.

Every time someone compliments my tattoo I tell that person about my husband and why he is so good to me. I had been in some abusive relationships in the past and then he came along and gave me worth; he deserves to have his name on my arm. He is a good person and loving person. He has gone through a lot to keep our family together, and he continues to do all that he can to hold it together and has never complained about it.

--Kellie
"

I am so happy about this because 1) this is one of the most special things that has even happened to me besides having my children and marrying the greatest man in the world. 2) This is something that will share with generations just how I feel with my husband. 3) Even after I am gone this will still last, being even more permanent then the tattoo itself.

The book is going to be released in June. I will be getting a copy of the book for my participation in the book. I really didn't feel the need to get paid because I felt like it was something special to be a part of. The whole book is a collection of Arabic tattoos only.

It was really kind of by luck that I got in the book. It was only a week after I posted the photo of the tattoo on Flickr and that is how the publisher found me. He emailed me and asked me to send him more photos.

I am planning on sending out a copy of the page that this article is on to all of my friends and family once I get a copy of the book. I want to share it with everyone. I am just so excited about being in this book. I will let you all know when the book comes out so that you can go and buy a copy for yourself.

Posted by Kelle at 03:37 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)