Lost Memory: Reward
The day before Mother's Day I wanted to get everything ready so I went to get my camera out of my purse where it always is and it wasn't there. I have been having memory problems for the past few weeks and I don't know what I did with it. I know that at some point I cleaned it out to make it lighter to go to an appointment but I don't know what i did with the stuff that i took out of my purse.
I am losing everything. I used to be obsessively organized. I don't know what happened. I don't know what changed because I can't remember when it all started. I didn't notice it until I couldn't remember what had happened on a TV show from week to week, to the point that I would actually think that we had missed the past weeks episode. It would take 10 minutes of Jemal explaining it all to me for me to remember bits and pieces.
I even mentioned this to my shrink and she said nothing just nodded her head. I had expected her to ask some questions about it or even prescribe something to help, but she did nothing.
I just really don't like this feeling. Especially since I read that if you have memory problems early in life your more likely to get alzheimer's later in life. It would be nice to know if it is the cause of a medication of if it because of something else. I am sure that you can imagine just how scary this can be. I wonder day to day if I will remember my own name when I wake up in the morning. Maybe that is an exaggeration but I do feel worried about it, and no one else seems to think it's a big deal.